RockingJuJu

Jacey is doing GREAT! Her wound is healing and looking wonderful. She has been pretty happy lately and it just warms my heart to she her returning to her old self. Not everyday is a great day but they are coming more often. She has 2 friends over for a sleep-over tonight. They are running through the house filling it with the sweet sound of screaming girls. This sound normally drives me crazy but tonight I am just very happy to be hearing it.

She is growing up so fast here lately. The chemo aged her a good 2 years. When I look at her it is hard to believe that she is only 11, but in my mind I can't believe that she is ALREADY 11. She has taken to spending more time by herself. She is making great use of the lock on her door and tells me to go away more than she invites me to stay. I remember when Justin went through this stage and I am hoping it passes quickly with Jacey. I miss her talking with me and wanting to snuggle. Those days are probably long gone though.

I am just emotional today I guess. I feel a heaviness in my heart for those who have lost their children to this monster. I so badly want to the next 3 years to fly by just so I can leave this fear of losing her behind me. I just cherish every moment that I get to see her smile. I know it drives her crazy but I can't help it.